Should I Try Suboxone?
Question by theheatheatwave: Should I try suboxone?
I am addicted to po9py tea. I take 8-14 grams of powdered po9py pod$ a day. This is equivalent to about 18 mg of Oxy a day— though I do not take oxy as it make me feel too swimmy and I don’t like to buy things on the street that might be stolen/fake. When I take less than 8 mg of poppy powder I have withdraws: nightmares, sweating, very painful tummy like being stuck with knives, sore joints, crankiness, suicidal thoughts (I know better than to act on them, of course), depression, no appetite, feeling worn-out and unable to work or care for myself. (Even taking a bath sounds like too much work.) I have tried to quit *three* times twice on my own and once with my husband’s help through a slow taper. But, when I get down to the low levels around 6-5mg a day, the withdraws just seem to keep building then stress from work makes me snap and I give in to the desire to take more poppy powder to make the withdraws go away so I can get my work done. (That’s what I tell myself.. but deep inside I just feel weak and like a failure.)
This has been going on for 7 months and I’ve had enough. I want to get clean. I want to have a kid some day, to travel to places like China, I’m a long distance runner and my training has not been good. (My addition traces back to pain meds I was given after a car accident last year… after I used all of the meds I was desperate for something else like the pain meds to make my depression about not being able to run go away.) I’m back to running now, I ran 3 miles today and it was good– so, really why do I still take this drug? It’s time consuming, and some of the time I get the dose wrong and end up sick– or if I forget it I could have withdraws at work which SUCKS.
SO HERE IS MY QUESTION. I have an appointment with an addition specialist to see about going on suboxone as a stepping stone to getting off the poppys. But ,I have read online in many forums (drugs dot com for example) that suboxone is addictive and VERY hard to quit. So, this “treatment” might make things worse for me. I am not taking huge amounts of poppy and my life is not at risk from it. I don’t need to do dangerous injection or buy my drugs on the street. It is also not very expensive. So is suboxone a good idea for me? Or should I give all of my drugs to my husband. Have him buy a SAFE (this time) and go for the taper again.. this time extra slow … I even have a digital scale to make it precise…
I can’t make up my mind.
I also worry about stressing out my husband. It’s not his fault that I got in to this so why should he have to clean up for me? That’s one reason I Iike the idea of going to a doctor and suboxone. He is very supportive of whatever I want but I want to respect him and not be like those drug addicts I have read about who hurt their loved one. So, what should I do?
Best answer:
Answer by Jennifer
Hi….well it’s great you have support…and also you recognize that you indeed have a problem with opiates..But when you say that your addiction isn’t hurting your health? I see that as a problem….it doesn’t matter how little or how much of any drug you take…it still harms your health,ok? I’m also a recovering addict,and I abused opiates for 16 long years…and been sober for 3 years.I take suboxone,and it’s done wonders for me and my sobriety.You have to make this decision for yourself,and as for the stories you’ve read..? Those are just that! Stories.Everyone is different in their own recovery,and if you need a little extra help…then why not give it a try.And just because suboxone works for me? Doesn’t mean it’s going to work for you…I’ve never heard of anyone failing on suboxone…nor have I heard of anyone having a terrible problem getting of of it.And as for addiction to suboxone? It isn’t very likely…it isn’t as addictive as methadone..But..all aside? This IS a decision that only you can make for yourself..You have the option to give it a try..and if you don’t like or see any results,then again…you have the option to stop taking this medication.But either way? You MUST stop using…..and this is a fact…one way or another…I wish you all the best,and try not to worry so much about “Those drug addicts you read about..who hurt the ones they love”…sorry I didn’t word it correctly.I have to tell you the truth here…You ARE one of those drug addicts dear……and it’s time that you seek help for your addiction once and for all,ok? And…just so you know? It’s ok to lean on your husband…this IS just one reason why you married him,right? For better or worse..sickness and in health? This is when it really counts…I wish you all the best..and just to add..I take suboxone myself,and have had wonderful success….Again…all the best and you do what you feel is best for you,and try not to get to involved in what you read…especially about what other peoples opinions are…What really matters right now? Is how and what YOU feel…I hope everything works out for you,and I hope you get the help that you need….Take care and GOD BLESS.