Lost All I Had Left to Cocaine?

Question by Glenn: Lost all I had left to cocaine?
I’m 18 years-old and badly addicted to cocaine. I told my brothers about this addiction, they live in different states, and they essentially disowned me. I am attempting to seek help, and the one person who has not given up on me is my best buddy who I’ll call Derek. Derek is drug-free and he has been my best buddy for some time now. He seemed shocked when I told him about my addiction but said he’d help me get treatment.

Anyhow, one day I was over at Derek’s place and waiting for him to get ready because we were going down to the theatre to catch a movie. He left his wallet on the table while he went upstairs to get his sweater, and I was just curious how much money he had. I quickly took a peek inside his wallet, and before I knew it I found myself stealing $ 20. He came back and got his wallet and we left the house. I only live down the street from him and I told him to wait a minute because I wanted to go back to my place and get something. Suspecting that “something” may be cocaine, I assume, Derek asked if I’d like him to go with me. I told him no, I’d be just a minute. I went back and got about $ 30 from my own home (I have a part-time job so a good deal of my money goes towards my habit) and planned on visiting my dealer at some point that night. Around here, cocaine will run you about $ 50/gram.

When I came back outside Derek was pretty upset. He said he was almost certain I’d stolen from him because he knew as a fact he’d had $ 35 in his wallet before we left his house, now he only had $ 15, so I must have taken most of it. I denied this, but he didn’t believe me. I’d stupidly placed all of my money in my wallet, and he demanded to see it. Of course, he found a total of $ 50 in there and when he did I’m pretty sure I saw tears in his eyes. He knew what I had in mind with that money. He said he wants his old best friend back, the drug-free one. I told him to get over it.

Now he wants nothing to do with me, not until I’m sober.

He started getting pretty emotional as well, I might add. He said he remembers how, before my addiction, he thought I was “cool, smart, a really funny guy, and a great friend.” He said he was only going to help me because he remembered having “Al lot of really fun times” with me, and he hated seeing his friend killing himself.

Real nice and all, but isn’t he getting too emotional?

Best answer:

Answer by Brandon
maybe, but try putting yourself in his shoes.
Wouldn’t you hate to see it happenin to your best friend. Even if you wouldn’t say it. I bet you’d think it.

Answer by Nathan
No. You need to get to rehab before this kills you. You’ve lost almost everything so far, just drop the cocaine and get back on track.

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